When he was a child, as he grew older, he had an idea in his head of what his life might look like, what shapes it might take. It was rarely a definite picture – it was more of a general feeling or expectation. Sometimes specifics would creep in, and he would imagine being married to certain woman, or going to work every day for a certain job. But mostly it was vague, fleeting. He might see a sunlit kitchen in the morning, a sea of faces of his audience as a lecturer or musician.
It was often drawn up in negatives. He saw the failures of the future: the desk job when he really wanted to be on stage, the poverty of his student days, life in a run-down house in a bad neighbourhood, growing old alone. Or just the smaller disappointments – a life more stressful than it was enjoyable, the realities of mortgages and raising children, a wife he loved less than he could have.
At some point in his twenties, he started to feel himself stepping into this future. He lived the college days he had envisioned; he moved into a shabby apartment that wasn’t all that bad considering his lack of money; he had a relationship with a girl more real and more vividly beautiful than he could have ever dreamt up.
And every now and then he found himself in a moment that defied his expectations entirely. He became skilled in things he had never dreamed even existed, and felt things he never would have expected. Sometimes he caught himself living out a life that he would never even dared to imagine for himself – a snapshot of the life of another, luckier man.
Outside My Window is a weekly series every Saturday on Sirens & Muses where I write a short vignette based on something I see outside my window, outside my door, or on the streets around my area.
The detachment in this is very skillfully done
Thanks very much Seb!
This passage is truly dreamlike. I felt like the character for a moment. Well done!
Thank you, that means a lot! 😀
Incantevole !!!! 🙂
Come scrivi bene Anima dal cuore puro!
Complimenti!!!
Un cordiale saluto
Claudio
I can just about figure out enough Italian that I can see you have said some nice things here, haha. So thank you!
Thanks to you gentle lady
Hello
See you soon
Claude
Sounds more like looking inside the window.
True! It was based on an incident where my boyfriend was looking out the window though, so I think it just about counts. 🙂